My always 30 checklist:-
- Get rid of my “chubby chick” image;
- Paint my toe-nails cherry red, enhance my gray blue eyes with smokey make-up, keep my lips lucious!
- To let go of my fears and limitations;
- To avoid people trying to put me down in life
- To make my own choices, living it and loving it!
- To do what makes me happy
- To stop being afraid of love
No 1: I decided to let go of my “fears” and tackle the diet thing heads on! I started my diet this past Wednesday, small portions more frequently and then in the evenings I do some 30 minute workout of either Taebo or Hip hop abs and this almost former “chubby chick” is glad to inform you guys that I already lost 2kg and some cm’s! Now the only thing is to keep it up hey?
No 2: I’m using this pretty little face (with my chubby cheeks) every morning as a canvas starting a new masterpiece! Oooohhh and do I look like just gorgeous every day!!! The compliments are rolling in! I can so get use to it, but before I float away on cloud nine, what these people dishing the compliments don’t know is that some mornings I need to wash, moisterize and start all over again because this artist has a “block” and I look more like some creation out of my dark, moarning era, than a masterpiece! But hey we’ll keep that our little secret!
No 3: phew the fears and limitations!! After I’ve done some thinking (not to worry, no braincells were hurt during this action) I realized the only limitations one has in life is the ones you create for yourself! No reason to ask “Why me?, rather ask “Why not me?” ok ok - let’s just get this straight - the later question isn’t supposed to be asked when something good happens to other people, it’s supposed to be asked when something difficult happens to yourself! Now I know if it weren’t for physics and law enforcement I would of been unstoppable!!!
No 4: Reminder: God made you, and He didn’t make no rubbish!!! Don’t allow people to put you down in life!!! Yeah I know this is sometimes difficult due to the feeling you get with people like this before the anger strikes! Oh come on we all do it, even if we deny it: “Sjame they need someone like me in their life, look how difficult things is going with him/her.” Stop to try and defend or justify someone who puts you down in life behaviour! They do it out of choice!!! Yeah you heard me! Avoid people who put you down in life, their motivation is jealousy! Surround yourself with laughing, optimistic and loving friends who embrace you into a circle of love. Friends who go through the process of learning to get to know you and love you for who you are, who are there to surround you with love and support when you make a mistake!
No 5: Every person’s life is consisting of a string of choices you make in life and you can’t blame anyone for your choices! And the scary truth is, we write our own life stories, some are sad, some are hysterical, some are best sellers! The thing is, there is no writing in pencil where you can just erase, it’s ink, and you can try to wipe it out with a correction pencil, but the truth is, you’re just covering it up. At some stage the correction fluid is going to crack and all is going to surface. Make your choices in life, don’t let other people make it for you! After all the only person who is going to be with you for the rest of your life is you yourself!
No. 6: No make-up, clothes or make over can make you look quite as beautiful as you are when you are truly happy! There is really nothing more beautiful, the smile, the twinkle in the eyes, the blush on your cheeks and the glowing! It is as though you discovered some big secret that no one knows about! When you feel like this the whole world look like this to you! Do what makes you happy! Read, laugh till your tummy hurts, dance in the rain, sing in the shower! When that gorgeous guy smiles at you, and it feels like your inside is melting and you wanna jump up and down, jump up and down! You’ll feel even better after doing this! Let go of the thought: “What will the people think?”
No. 7: We all have been through this scenario: The person you fancy notices you, the shy smiles, the eyes that twinkle, the butterflies turning your tummy upside down, the sweaty palms, the knees that all of a sudden starts wobbling, and then your biggest embaressment: they start a conversation and you want to answer in a normal voice - really you want to, but it’s one of the following situations; 1) the words gets stuck in your throat and no matter how you try all you can get out is, uhm or ahh and nothing more; 2) you start blabbering like a old wind up tape, talking in riddles and weird saying just pouring out of your mouth like word vomit, while you thinking who on earth took possesion of your mouth and tongue because it so doesn’t sound like you! 3) your conversation is normal but all of a sudden you stutter!
But even with this the date is made and while getting ready for this date you try your best to look perfect! The date goes well and soon the two of you are the newest hot item on the town! You date, you talked and the whole relationship is exactly all you wanted!
And then it all starts. People meddling, always waiting for something to go wrong when everything is good. People thinking Wow! it’s too perfect. Then the fear and the insecurity sets in! And we ourselves mess it up!!! Eventually you break up because you are scared of getting hurt! Make a desicion to let go of your insecurities and fears! Enjoy every moment and all will work out the way it’s suppose too. Stop to try and create a happy ending for yourself! Sometimes your heart will get bruised or broken, and it will take time to get over it, but while you’re busy getting over it, God is busy putting your heart back together and nursing it to health, and one day you will wake up to find it in perfect health again!
I’m so much happier since I started to apply the above in my life and I intend to live a happy, content and wonderful life!
Hope all of you have a wonderful day!
There is a question in my mind I never seem to find a answer to.
Why do people always want to own you when you spend some time with them? You’re not even in a relationship, yet it seems they want to tie you down to their social life, beliefs and feelings….
I’m a grown woman, there is nothing wrong with me physically or mentally, I have a good paying job with my own set of wheels which I pay for myself, I buy my own fuel and pay for my own flat and everything in it.
I managed to survive the past 30 years and accomplish what I did, with the same body, brains and wit I have now, yet you act as thou I’m incappable of thinking nevermind surviving. All because I have different beliefs.
When I’m buying food for the house you tell me I waste money and I must be careful to overspend, yet mid of the month you’re the first one to be out of money for your smokes. While I manage to make my salary last till month end? You consider buying food a waste of money, yet whenever you have some money, you will go and buy booze….
I love to get out and about, why should I sit at home all alone every weekend? Because you are bored and feel instead of me spending time with my family and loved ones, I must rather stay at in town for you to spend time with me, doing all the things you want to do, like sit in front of the tv the whole weekend watching movies. You start watching a movie and fall asleep and me? I’m sitting there bored out of my mind! you even have a problem when I start doing my hobby (scrapbooking) on the computer. Your comments: “I wish I was a computer, then maybe she will give me some attention too!”
Gee whiz!!! You tire me out!!!! Get a life, get a hobby!!! For crying out loud! JUST GET SOMETHING!!!! Even if it’s just a spark in your lazy butt!!!!
If you want a pet, get yourself a puppy or a kitten. If you want to own something, buy yourself a blow up doll! That will solve your problem. She will be sitting there, not moving, not thinking while you do whatever makes you happy!
You can even put her in the little showcase you want for me to be in so badly, or rather the cage you’re trying to build around me!
And because I don’t want to settle for the above - I’m a selfish little bitch that wants to live “life according to me”!
Well buddy me got news for you!!!
Yes I want to live my life my way, because first of all I’m not responsible for your happiness, but I am responsible for my own happiness!
and can I tell you another secret: I am the only person who is going to be there for me for the rest of my life!
I really think you should free yourself from whatever is chasing you, maybe then you will kind of understand my point of view…
Freedom is when you start running without a destination… you can end up anywhere you like!
I’m a grown person with the ability to think, work and live. Don’t try to cage me in or crowd me. Being afraid of losing me, will cause just that… you most certainly will loose me….
The end of this week arrived after a long week at work and me wishing it to be weekend, but to be truthful, I actually wished this weekend was over already!!!
This afternoon is like a deep dark dangerous river infront of me, with me not able to see anything in the dark waters. Even thou the surface is quiet, I have no idea when it will all the actions below the surface will erupt and destroy the loaded atmosphere.
Well I guess I don’t have to wait too long for that too happen!
Why is it that love is always so complicated? Why can’t it be simple like in the movies or in songs?
I want you to want me, I need you to need me and wham bam everything falls into place and you have your happily ever after???
And why is it that sometimes when someone love you and have feelings for you, you have those exact same feelings… for someone else?!?!?
And that one don’t know about your existence or worse thinks the two of you are the best est best friends ever!>>!!
Jeepers guy, open your eyes and you’ll realize exactly how crazy I’m about you!
And the other guy, - how many times and in how many languages should I tell you that there won’t be anything between us and that I want you to leave me alone???? Get on with your life and get out of mine!
But I guess it only happens in the novels and the movies!
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I’m a loving, caring person with a great sense of humor.
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